SMILE

What lies beyond a smile
Frightening depths beneath
Fathoms of loneliness
That creeps
Below this smile
A world of pain
Deep inside
A heart beats
With desire unfulfilled
With longing great
Scars that have just been healed
Fester
Bleed anew
They pollute the emptiness inside
They stain the walls of this desolate void
But still a smile
A gesture
Makes it seem like everything is fine
That everything is fucking keen
Under a smile
Fathoms of isolation
Touch an empty shore of numbness
A tunnel spirals
Miles and miles of sadness
To reach a limitless wasteland
A barren garden
Where wilted roses torture my mind
And bereft feelings devour my soul
Reflected in eyes
Filled with desperate need
I stare
I stare merely inches from you
But separated by gulfs of misery
I gaze
Longing for the day when you will
Brave these straits
Crush these roses into powder
And conquer these desires which consume me alive
When you will swim this sea of desolation
To reach me
I wait for you and the dream
Never comes true
I wait for you
And smile
Melancholy
But the day never arrives
The fantasy is never realized
And I’m left
With wilted roses that I daily place on this altar of grief
That I offer with the monument of my soul
Needing
Smiling at you
I smile
I smile...

Copyright by Kavita Nandlal